I am at a stand still........
I have taken off 43 pounds since last December.....
I worked my ass off, literally. I swim three times a week, treadmill 5 times a week, weights 3 times a week, and now I am standing still on the scale, and in the mirror.
I feel heavier than I did when I hauled my fat body onto the treadmill last December.
My BMI went from 34.0 to 27.6...I am very proud of this but I am standing still......
The past few months I have been binging.......Eating the crap I stayed away from for more than 6 months.................I feel as though I am losing control.......................................A vicious cycle of binging and yes (blushing) occasionally purging.....
I am a grown woman and I should know better.....I should know, I do know.....
Yesterday I ate a whole box of chocolates......yeah, the whole box....maraschino chocolate covered cherries....the box was destined to go in one of my children's Christmas stockings..........ahhhhhhh
I took the other boxes over to my Dads house, in case of another "ms. PAC man" mouth episode........
The little white
balls are the
cherries.........
Yellow lady is
me!!!!!!!!!!
1 comment:
Rachel, Congratulations on all that you are doing and have done, in order to get to where you are. At this time of year, to stand still is victory. 43 pounds is such a victory, too. Yeay for you. Taking the rest of the boxes out of the house is a victory too. Yeay for you. Go girl and don't listen to the messages of hopelessness. Being as honest as you've been in this post is victory.
And you encouraged me, because I know I am not alone in my struggles.
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