Saturday, December 27, 2008

I am so glad this holiday stuff is over....
I desperately need to get back to normal....
I feel like I am spinning out of control without my routines......

The children came home....we opened gifts, we laughed, we ate, we planted ourselves in front of the boob tube, now its over............

I ate well at Christmas, I did not purge once, I wont lie and say I didn't want to, but there was always someone around......................Its okay....its okay.....
I told myself this over and over....and guess what....it is okay......I did not gain 60 pounds after one heavy meal......
I do make a wonderful turkey, with all the dressings........I do...........

The only people left besides me is, my son, and my boyfriend.....
Its so very quiet because they tend to be night owls who sleep most of the hours before noon away.....Its good though...it gives me time to think...regroup as they say......I did manage to sneak away yesterday and go to the gym.....it felt so good
I need to sneak again today................put in a good movie and they wont even notice I am gone.............

2 comments:

MelissaS said...

YAY! you didn't purge. it doesn't matter at all that you wanted to -- that you didn't means everything. your body thanks you. you had a non-violent evening. go girl!!!!

just wondering -- is there a reason you have to "sneak" to the gym? is it because everyone wants your time or that you're told not to exercise? i don't mean to be intrusive -- i just wonder. take care. melissa

me said...

re: sneak to the gym........
yes, they think I am obsessed....
its okay....I didnt go..........
we watched some silly movie and you know what...it was okay....