I feel lost.

I feel alone

I pay the bills (when I can)

I try to keep things in order

I watch my weight

I love my children (only one left at home)

I am alone

I am tired of responsibilities

I want to rip it up

I want to read

read till sleep

I want to eat

Eat till purge

I want to exercise

exercise till I drop

I want to run

start fresh

I dread the shopping

I go without

I clean my house

I throw it away