Saturday was very good....
In Sept 07 my (now 12 year old) daughter had a tumour remover from her lower leg.
It was baseball sized and had her tibia and fibula bent and bowed.
we were to wait for the bones to break, or for our surgery date, whatever came first..
I have a friend who is a doctor and he helped us get in quicker so she had surgery,
and didn't have to go through the trauma of a fracture and then surgery.

Jan 09.......we went back for the latest follow up ex ray results.......
I was very scared because she has been experiencing mild discomfort since a bad sprain this past sept......
I was almost positive it was growing again............
The good news......its okay....no new growth noted..........
I am so happy..........I couldn't stand the thought of her going through this again.
when it originally happened we didn't know if it was cancer or what the hell it was, so it was a very tough time for mother and Daughter................
She has an 11 inch scar on her leg....from the ankle up......she is a tough little girl and may have to live with the discomfort this osteoblast has caused for the rest of her life....................We can live with that as she has the leg and it wasnt cancer................
Saturday was good.........

This summer
This summer I will run more
I will enter a 10 k run

This summer I will swim more
I will swim with my daughter

This summer we will lay by the lake
Every chance we get

This summer I will stay up late
I will make it last

This summer I wont be anal about my lawn
This summer my child will cut it

This summer I will breathe more
I will breathe the scent of my flowering tree

this summer I will work less
I will enjoy my holidays

This summer I will come out of the gym
I will run in the fresh air

This summer I will be smoke free
I am always quiting

This summer I will start to drink
I havent drank In one full year

this summer I will go to the fringe
I missed it last year

This summer I will buy a new bikini
My cup size is way smaller

this summer I hope to get out of this God foresaken town

I can be such a hypocrite.....
I was going to eat healthy today...
I did most of the day, then I attended my friends sons 16Th birthday and had cake.....
well you guessed it....I purged, and purged until I was dry....
I am so disappointed in myself tonight.......

Image is not me....
This morning was my first time back in the pool since the 19th of Dec.
It felt so good, but I felt sloppy....my stroke was not smooth, I needed to breathe more.....
I said to the lady next to me...."I Feel sloppy, like a seal with no flippers"...
she laughed and said she felt the same....its amazing how fast some muscles go lax...
The good thing is after a couple more sessions I will feel smooth and strong again....

My work out tonight was a little slower than normal....
My abs are a bit sore from yesterday...I know I should have let those muscles repair and waited until tomorrow to work them, but the laziness over the holidays has me in overdrive..........
I am back on top of things............

The eating isn't so great......b/p...yesterday.....
Today I kept everything down....
Lemon pepper tuna... for building muscle...apple...carrots...a few crackers, coffee, and now that I think about it nothing else......tomorrow I will eat more.....Healthy fuel for my body..
I am back to work in the morning.......
its hard to be disciplined with all the treats in the coffee room...........

I feel so much better......
After being away from home these past few days, I hadn't worked out...........
Today I managed to do two full work outs......
The time between was spent cleaning then a wee nap....
I feel so much better now

worst fear.....

I may have to go.....
my partner at work started blogging here.....
frick........I am almost sure she is reading my blog..........
I hate this............
I hate her knowing my secrets..........
do you hear me AMBER.........